Track 11: CCCLove Like a Dog Fight
Written at 5th Avenue Marina in Oakland on the 31st of January, 2016.
Love is vulnerable/ Love is vulnerability/ Love is crying/ Love is making an idiot of myself/ Love is being that idiot and not caring ‘cus love is/ love is changing/ love is bigger than me/ my personality/ my ego/ my ego holds me down/ that which I think I am but isn’t/ a fraction of me that divides me from I/ I am what I do not know and my ego always thinks that I know/ I don’t know what that is/ what love is/ bigger than me which breaks my ego/ I write this because I love you but I don’t know who or what I am/ a relationship gives room for mistakes/ love ties this together/ when the ego fights/ love still wins/ because it is bigger than the both of us/ although it is also us/ I love you and the look in your eye/ but I think you think too much/ make a real mistake and say it/ maybe you will find something you don’t know/ its okay to be vulnerable/ you’ll find that what you thought was an idiot is merely a fool attached to nothing in the universe/ love is also nothing/ no hinge on an axis/ always fully immersed in what is vulnerable/ trying not to make the same mistake twice/ pretend that it didn’t happen/ or acting like they knew/ like a child knows/ no shame/ no taboos/ no way to say “it”/ without contradictions/ love is finer than silk, stronger than diamonds, and moves like the wind/ except it is all of those things and none of them/ love just is.